I've tried. I'm done.

I hate this.

I hate dealing with constant disappointment.

Every aspect of my pathetic life is me trying to be better

and getting shut down

or failing.

Every.

Single.

Time.

I can only try so hard

and so much

before I can't try any more.

I'm almost ready to give up.

I'm sorry I don't know enough
and I'm not smart enough.

But one thing I know is
I sure as hell try hard enough.
 

So when is trying going to get me anywhere?
Because so far, all I have to show for what I've done
is a great big pile of nothing.