If I could only remember.

I feel like I'm living a different life. Like the time has passed so quickly I can't even remember the emotions I experienced yesterday. Like, if I blink too much, weeks will pass without me knowing.  Like if I close my eyes, everything will be over in an instant. 

But I want to feel.

I want to remember.

I want to hurt.

I want to cry.

I was to see.

I want to breathe.

I want to live.

I miss the winter.

I miss those cold nights, rain pouring relentlessly outside.
I miss listening to the sound of nothing but the harsh wind pounding against my window.
I miss the feeling of knowing that there is someone waiting, someone hoping, someone caring.
I miss the quiet sounds that are made when my sheets brush up against my chilled body.
I miss closing my eyes and dreaming a seemingly real dream.
I miss the winter. I miss you.