To feel wanted.

What do I want?

 

I want to wake up one morning and know that I'm loved

rather than constantly wonder who actually cares.

 

I want to be the one people want to be around.

Not the person who never quite feels accepted.

 

I want to have a family

that loves me

and visits me 

and wants to be around me.

 

I want to be done

with lonely nights at home.

Nights of being scared and depressed and sad. 

 

I want it to end.

All anyone wants

is to feel wanted.

 

 

 

 

I want to feel wanted.

I am myself.

I'm ugly

and dumb.

I'm alone

and awkward

and hated.

I am unsuccessful.

I'm not worth anything.

I should just give up. 
 

Every day.

Every single day

that's what I'm told to believe.

It's almost as if you have to be perfect

to be accepted.

But that's laughable.

Because honestly, who is perfect?

No one.

Not one person on this planet is perfect.

But all of us "ordinary" people are put down

or laughed at

or scrutinized 

because we don't look

or talk

or breathe like the rest of society thinks we should.

I'm sorry I'm not who everyone else wants me to be.

I am myself.

I am unique.

There is no one like me.

and it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks,

because that is EXACTLY who I want to be.  

I'm beautiful
and smart.

I'm awkward

and loved.

I am successful.

I'm worth more than I know.

I will never give up.