I want to be....

I'm tired of trying to be strong. I'm tired of repeatedly saying, "I'm ok," when really, I'm not. I'm tired of listening to sad songs and wishing that somehow they would help me feel a little bit better.

I'm so sick of putting my heart and soul into something to turn around and watch everything come crashing down on top of me. 

I want to feel like I'm on top of the world.

I want to hold my head up high, not because I feel like I have to trick people into thinking I'm happy, but because I actually am.

I want to get dressed up to go out and have a great time.

I don't want to always have that thought in the back of my mind or that feeling deep in my heart that I've always had. The one I've come to know so well. The feeling that, I'm not good enough.

And that's all I really want. I want to be good enough. I want to stop hiding behind the fake smiles and the forced laughs. I want to be confident. I want to beautiful. I want to be...happy.